The mama that I wrote about in my previous post, mama to my students. She's gone. As quickly as she came into my life, she is gone. Two boys are now without a mama. It hurts. It isn't fair, and I don't know what to do about it. She had started ARV meds. She was supposed to get healthier and stronger. She was supposed to move back to Jubilee and raise her boys. I'm confused and broken hearted.
I had it on my heart to read something to her during our last visit just two weeks before her death. I wanted her to know how loved she was. In creole, I read her these words:
My Child,
You may not know me,
but I know everything about you.
Psalm 139:1
You may not know me,
but I know everything about you.
Psalm 139:1
I know when you sit down and when you rise up.
Psalm 139:2
Psalm 139:2
I am familiar with all your ways.
Psalm 139:3
Psalm 139:3
Even the very hairs on your head are numbered.
Matthew 10:29-31
Matthew 10:29-31
For you were made in my image.
Genesis 1:27
Genesis 1:27
In me you live and move and have your being.
Acts 17:28
Acts 17:28
For you are my offspring.
Acts 17:28
Acts 17:28
I knew you even before you were conceived.
Jeremiah 1:4-5
Jeremiah 1:4-5
I chose you when I planned creation.
Ephesians 1:11-12
Ephesians 1:11-12
You were not a mistake,
for all your days are written in my book.
Psalm 139:15-16
for all your days are written in my book.
Psalm 139:15-16
I determined the exact time of your birth
and where you would live.
Acts 17:26
and where you would live.
Acts 17:26
You are fearfully and wonderfully made.
Psalm 139:14
Psalm 139:14
I knit you together in your mother's womb.
Psalm 139:13
Psalm 139:13
And brought you forth on the day you were born.
Psalm 71:6
Psalm 71:6
I have been misrepresented
by those who don't know me.
John 8:41-44
by those who don't know me.
John 8:41-44
I am not distant and angry,
but am the complete expression of love.
1 John 4:16
but am the complete expression of love.
1 John 4:16
And it is my desire to lavish my love on you.
1 John 3:1
1 John 3:1
Simply because you are my child
and I am your Father.
1 John 3:1
and I am your Father.
1 John 3:1
I offer you more than your earthly father ever could.
Matthew 7:11
Matthew 7:11
For I am the perfect father.
Matthew 5:48
Matthew 5:48
Every good gift that you receive comes from my hand.
James 1:17
James 1:17
For I am your provider and I meet all your needs.
Matthew 6:31-33
Matthew 6:31-33
My plan for your future has always been filled with hope.
Jeremiah 29:11
Jeremiah 29:11
Because I love you with an everlasting love.
Jeremiah 31:3
Jeremiah 31:3
My thoughts toward you are countless
as the sand on the seashore.
Psalms 139:17-18
as the sand on the seashore.
Psalms 139:17-18
And I rejoice over you with singing.
Zephaniah 3:17
Zephaniah 3:17
I will never stop doing good to you.
Jeremiah 32:40
Jeremiah 32:40
For you are my treasured possession.
Exodus 19:5
Exodus 19:5
I desire to establish you
with all my heart and all my soul.
Jeremiah 32:41
with all my heart and all my soul.
Jeremiah 32:41
And I want to show you great and marvelous things.
Jeremiah 33:3
Jeremiah 33:3
If you seek me with all your heart,
you will find me.
Deuteronomy 4:29
you will find me.
Deuteronomy 4:29
Delight in me and I will give you
the desires of your heart.
Psalm 37:4
the desires of your heart.
Psalm 37:4
For it is I who gave you those desires.
Philippians 2:13
Philippians 2:13
I am able to do more for you
than you could possibly imagine.
Ephesians 3:20
than you could possibly imagine.
Ephesians 3:20
For I am your greatest encourager.
2 Thessalonians 2:16-17
2 Thessalonians 2:16-17
I am also the Father who comforts you
in all your troubles.
2 Corinthians 1:3-4
in all your troubles.
2 Corinthians 1:3-4
When you are brokenhearted,
I am close to you.
Psalm 34:18
I am close to you.
Psalm 34:18
As a shepherd carries a lamb,
I have carried you close to my heart.
Isaiah 40:11
I have carried you close to my heart.
Isaiah 40:11
One day I will wipe away
every tear from your eyes.
Revelation 21:3-4
every tear from your eyes.
Revelation 21:3-4
And I'll take away all the pain
you have suffered on this earth.
Revelation 21:3-4
you have suffered on this earth.
Revelation 21:3-4
I am your Father, and I love you
even as I love my son, Jesus.
John 17:23
even as I love my son, Jesus.
John 17:23
For in Jesus, my love for you is revealed.
John 17:26
John 17:26
He is the exact representation of my being.
Hebrews 1:3
Hebrews 1:3
He came to demonstrate that I am for you,
not against you.
Romans 8:31
not against you.
Romans 8:31
And to tell you that I am not counting your sins.
2 Corinthians 5:18-19
2 Corinthians 5:18-19
Jesus died so that you and I could be reconciled.
2 Corinthians 5:18-19
2 Corinthians 5:18-19
His death was the ultimate expression
of my love for you.
1 John 4:10
of my love for you.
1 John 4:10
I gave up everything I loved
that I might gain your love.
Romans 8:31-32
that I might gain your love.
Romans 8:31-32
If you receive the gift of my son Jesus,
you receive me.
1 John 2:23
you receive me.
1 John 2:23
And nothing will ever separate you
from my love again.
Romans 8:38-39
from my love again.
Romans 8:38-39
Come home and I'll throw the biggest party
heaven has ever seen.
Luke 15:7
heaven has ever seen.
Luke 15:7
I have always been Father,
and will always be Father.
Ephesians 3:14-15
and will always be Father.
Ephesians 3:14-15
My question is…
Will you be my child?
John 1:12-13
Will you be my child?
John 1:12-13
I am waiting for you.
Luke 15:11-32
Love, Your Dad Almighty God
Luke 15:11-32
Love, Your Dad Almighty God
My only hope in the midst of the sadness, is that she left this earth knowing that she was loved not only by her family and friends, but by her Heavenly Father.
Father's Love Letter used by permission Father Heart Communications
© 1999-2011 www.FathersLoveLetter.com
Father's Love Letter used by permission Father Heart Communications
© 1999-2011 www.FathersLoveLetter.com
This is a beautiful love letter. Thank you for sharing. I am sorry about your loss and the boys loss. May God comfort your hearts.
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Marsha C